The girls and I attended the one year memorial mass for Isabella's best friend Lauren's mom this past Tuesday evening.
I still struggle with the fact that she's gone - it often makes me question my faith and has me thinking about death far too often.
I see Lauren almost daily most weeks and she seems fine.
But what is fine?
She is 17 and does not have a mother.
It's been one year and to me, it feels like only yesterday that Izzy called me from school hysterically crying and telling me that Kathy had died.
The church usually gives me so much peace.
This time, if I'm honest, it did not.
It just made me sad. And it had me questioning all over again, why God would take away such a vibrant person who still had far too much life left.
My Ava Grace is obviously far too young to understand the impact of what happened to Cathy, what cancer did to Lauren's family; but believe you me, she knows she is gone forever.
She was so, so sweet at church.
And afterwards, we had ice cream and a magical walk through the forest.
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| dress - Janie + Jack {not current} cute option here pineapple sandals - Gymboree |
I like to think that Kathy is looking down upon the girls in that very last photo.
If you have it in you, please say a little prayer for strength for our sweet Lauren.
If you visited today to see Ava's outfit and a light-hearted post, I sincerely apologize.
I always try to share what is on my heart and this is where it is at today.
...in the interest of lightening the mood, I linked a few of my favourite striped {all on sale for $16} dresses from Gymboree below.
I want every one. for myself.
If you have it in you, please say a little prayer for strength for our sweet Lauren.
If you visited today to see Ava's outfit and a light-hearted post, I sincerely apologize.
I always try to share what is on my heart and this is where it is at today.
...in the interest of lightening the mood, I linked a few of my favourite striped {all on sale for $16} dresses from Gymboree below.
I want every one. for myself.
Dearest Susan,
ReplyDeleteThere are days and moments in our lives, that we don't have the answers... But be it at Church or in Nature, we often can sense a connection and no doubt, in the BIG ENDLESS UNIVERSE somewhere our loved ones still exist. It is just our little human mind that cannot grasp this magnitude. Lauren does have a very special guardian Angel that will look over her from HEAVEN! We all have such special Angels... But it is all right for feeling sad and lost at certain moments. They do weigh so heavy on our hearts. All we love to do is to hold on to the ones that are dear to us.
A big tight hug to all of you and Lauren xoxo
Mariette
I simply cannot imagine being that age without a mother. I will definitely be lifting her up in prayer!
ReplyDeleteHugs. So sad. I know God is love and sometime we want answers...I often find myself clinging to this scripture when I am searching for whys and peace...al Version
ReplyDelete"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33 while we will never understand why these things happen...God can turn out his blessing from such a sad situation. We just sometimes have to have faith that his thoughts and ways are higher than ours.