Ava Grace's Closet: Insomniac

Monday, August 15, 2011

Insomniac

Sadly, true.
After all of these months of wishing for sleep -
I now cannot.
Regardless of what I try.
And I have tried everything.

Camomile tea.
Warm milk.
Cooler room. Warmer room.
Completely other room.
Earplugs when I thought it might be my husband's sometime snoring bothering me.
Tylenol PM. (these worked. but then I got addicted.)
Melatonin. For 2 straight weeks like "they" said to do.
Advil. Way too much of it. And sometimes motrin.
Wine. 2 glasses. (no, not with the motrin)

I still did not sleep
In spurts, absolutely.
But the awakenings are constant.
And sometimes lengthy.
Hence the late night twitter reads. And subsequent pinterest addiction.

I visited my longtime family doctor.
Who took one look at me and said I needed to sleep. very badly.
She prescribed sleeping pills. I can't recall what kind.
These also worked.
Although her plan of "relearning" didn't.
I slept on the nights I took a pill.
I didn't on nights I did not.

I am spent.

My body just physically can't take it anymore.
Pregnancy. A baby who has yet to sleep through consistently
=  almost two years since I have slept an entire night. Two years.


Before resorting to a sleep clinic, (who knew these even existed?) I decided to try the "natural" route.
I left the health food store with -
L-Tryptophane (2 horse-sized not kidding pills nightly), melatonin (in a larger dose) and some magical herbal relaxing tea.
I am on week two of the regime.
And honestly, it is killing me.
But, I will give this a fair shake.
Not sure what my alternative is.
And wondering if I will ever sleep on my own again.

17 comments :

  1. That sounds absolutely draining, more so than trying to find the perfect milk =) Maybe you just need to prick your finger on a spinning wheel or eat a poisoned apple. It worked for Sleeping Beauty and Snow White...

    ReplyDelete
  2. I wish you all the best hope you finally get your peaceful sleep back i know how you feel. Thanks for linking up at monday mingle hop, following back and i look forward being part of your blog.

    ReplyDelete
  3. You poor thing - I'm not pregnant but I am having the worst time falling asleep too! Don't know why except my mind is racing... I need to calm down.
    Here's to you sleeping tonight!
    I've Become My Mother
    I've Become My Mother facebook

    ReplyDelete
  4. Lol, welcome to mommyhood, I suppose! I haven't slept a solid night since I was a kid (I'm a very light sleeper and awake to any noise). It sucks, yes, but somehow you do get used to it. Lol. Let me know if your new experiment works. Hey, following from www.MeasuringFlower.com. I hope you have a great day (and night)!

    ReplyDelete
  5. Now following from VB GFC following.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Oh dear, that sounds truly awful. I definitely don't get the kind of sleep I did before having a child, but what you're describing sounds much, much worse than just your average "mommy insomnia." You may already have tried this, but I do find shutting off the screens at least an hour before bedtime helps me fall asleep more quickly. Twitter seems to make me all twitchy and if I go on it too close to bedtime, I have a terrible time falling asleep.

    ReplyDelete
  7. when you have time, there is a yoga pose that will help you sleep.. hot yoga might work too. come with me..

    ReplyDelete
  8. Oh no! Wish I had some advice for you... I am a total wreck without sleep! Hoping you find the slumber you so desperately need.

    ReplyDelete
  9. so sad for you friend! I am sure you have tried everything BUT my sister was like that... seriously she slept maybe 4 hours a night...2 things helped...1. keeping a notepad by her bed to jot down anything she might have going through her mind so that she could take care it the next day. 2.) she used to lay in bed with her elbow on the mattress with her arm in the air and try to hold her arm up as long as possible...lol...so funny ...but she wold always fall asleep ;)

    ReplyDelete
  10. Amanda - totally agree. I can't be on twitter/computer/blackberry just before bed or else I have an even worse time.
    Christina - I am willing to try anything! I guess holding the arm up until pure exhaustion sets in could work...guess what I'll be doing tonite?
    Rachel - that and still looking for poison apples...anyone? anyone?

    ReplyDelete
  11. I feel for you, lady! Hang in there. I hear frequent exercise can help....doest it seem to help with every ailment out there? Yet, I still can't get myself to do it! Good luck! Thx for all the sweet comments on my blog!

    ReplyDelete
  12. I'd offer advice, but I'm sure by this point you've heard it all. I'll say a little prayer that you get some decent sleep soon!

    ReplyDelete
  13. Ohhh Lord, do I ever feel for you! I have a newborn so she accounts for my lack of sleep, but i hope and pray she'll be sleeping through the night soon! I sure hope everything works out for you with this new sleeping regime.

    ReplyDelete
  14. Man, it stinks not to be able to sleep! :( I had issues, too. I take a combo Calcium, Magnesium, Potassium every night and that has helped me a great deal. Hope you get it figured out!

    ReplyDelete
  15. I'm so sorry! I know what it's like to be sleepless. We just left the newborn phase over here, and it's definitely draining to go without it! I'm a new follower from the Monday Mingle! Love your site!

    http://willandmaryfrances.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete
  16. The baby years are hard. I promise, someday you will sleep a lot better when she is older. I've been through these periods and it is rough.

    Visiting from Voiceboks. Thanks for the blog comment.

    ReplyDelete

I love reading every last one. Thanks so much for stopping by our little blog. xo.

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...